Is it just a Feeling?…

Howard Jones asked us “What is Love?” only he did it like this “What is loooooooooooooooooove anyway, does anybody Love anybody anyway wayaaaa wayaaaaaa wayaa yaaa yaaaa ya,” with all music and shit. Great but did it answer the question? No, no, it didn’t, so if Mr. Jones can’t help us find out what love is then who can?

Justin Hawkins. Said “I Believe in a Thing Called Love” That’s very salient Justin but that still doesn’t answer my question.

Dean Martin is famous for singing the Italian National Anthem which has the lyrics “When the Moon Hits your eye like a big pizza pie, that’s amore” in it, but I’m not sure you could even fit the moon in your eye, it is possible to throw a pizza at someone so it hits them in the eye, but that doesn’t seem very romantic to me, or something I’d do to express my feelings for a loved one? No Dean Master of the gentle croon you might be, your advice, though, regarding what constitutes “amore” is perhaps a little prosaic at best. And just damn silly at worst.

The Beatles would have us believe that “All you need is love” which is all very well and yes you could say that love is a need. Especially for beings such as us, who tend to live in quite large social groups, but is it all you need? I fear not. There are some other essentials, air, water and food to name but three. Please try not to forget to follow these other needs even when experiencing love.

I could trawl through the internet all day looking for song lyrics to say daft things about, but I’m a bit bored of that line of inquiry already, and I’ve only been doing it for a bit.

So, what is love, is it just a feeling? Yes it is, I suppose, a very pleasant one at that, but is it just a feeling? It’s not so good when it’s unrequited, although there is something to be said for melancholy longing. For example there has been quite a bit of art derived from love that isn’t returned.

Its not just romantic either is it? I’ve often found myself saying “I love you” to my Mum, my Sister my Nieces, and even my cat! But I don’t want to shower them with kisses and go num, num, num, on their breasts and tummy (well except the cat, I some times do that to the cat but only because it makes her purr really loud which is funny) but I do use the word love to describe the way I feel about my family. Does that tell us that love means more than one thing, yeah it does, ok!

And how is it I can fall so passionately in love with a person thousands of miles away from me, who, much as I’d like to think differently about the matter, despite her having penciled in a holiday in my apartment in a medieval village in Italy, and however much I really, really would love to hold her and kiss her and bring her to orgasm after orgasm, I’m probably not going to meet. How is it I can feel that level of passionate ardor for a woman, admittedly an extremely gorgeous sexy and yummy scrumptious one, who I know may never be more than a collection of images on a hard drive?

So I love my family I love my friends, and I love my cat.

And some of those people, possibly even my cat, it would appear love me, perhaps that’s enough, perhaps even just to have loved is enough? It’s better to have loved and lost… yadda, yadda, yadda, etc.

If any one has actually read this, then I want them to ask themselves this. “What on earth is this idiot dribbling on about?”

Goodnight.

A Rose WIthout Its Thorns

A Galleon, without cannons;

Snakes, without venoms,

A Lion, without claws,

An Eagle, without talons,

Bulls, without horns,

A Rose, without its thorns.

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The Pointlessness, of empty threats;

The Insult of, indifferent hearts,

And Boredom, with some irksome parts,

Unendingly, Tiresome talk of tripe,

Of Lacklustre, rear end swipes,

A Rose, without its thorns.

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Of Burnt out dreams, and awkward ends;

With Wasted things, and spirits bent,

And Tired youth, a waste of time,

Never To have know your touch,

A Life without the scent of you,

A Rose without its thorns.

No Regret

Fleetingly we came together;

In fun and prose and passion,

Nothing ever lasts forever.

Ended in a gently fashion.

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Moved was I, by tender charms;

Your beautifully inspired mind.

The place you rested in my arms,

Future comforts I can find,

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Fortunately and well met;

So gleefully we danced and loved,

No where in this I find regret,

Resultant friendship, and found trust.

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Doubt…

Struck, here now, and done by doubt;

Uncharacteristic, misapprehension,

What is it, truly, all about?

Can I really believe this assertion?

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Confusing reality with fiction;

The words are there, I see them written,

Assumptions made, by implication?

Forever shy, forever bitten.

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I give of my heart, so easily;

Upon my sleeve, it beats unbidden,

Love imagined dreamily,

Affections hand, is it, falsely driven?

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I am so soft, blinded, in truth;

By beauties sweet, Grey name,

Lips not kissed, revealed by proof,

But what of her, she feels the same?

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My hearts so true, my feelings pure;

And as for her, can I really trust?

Uncertainly me, what’s the score?

Unfairly forced, do I, to heavy handed push?

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Fool before, will I be again;

My heart my love, is open true,

And is this just a repeating trend?

Forever fool, let it not be so,

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My wish is her and my desire:

Ridiculously lofty romantic goals,

Over the top, could I make it higher?

I want, so much, to believe, in our kindred souls.

Alone

Lonely, is an odd word and an even odder feeling, I’ve been feeling it a bit recently. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not prone to misery and being up happy, and I am, generally speaking, a happy chappy, but even I feel it from time to time. I’m in my forties, which means I’m probably, with any luck, about half way through my life.

I’m single, and have been for about three or four years now. It’s the longest I’ve even been single in my adult life, and I find myself wondering.

“Is this the way I shall remain for the rest of it?”

To be honest I’ve not really been doing much pursuing of the relationship thing of late, and, I think, for the most part I’m happy to be single, also I do have friends who I spent time with, so don’t think this is any more than a reflective view of my current feelings my non-readers. Don’t pity me you bastards!

Still it seems as though my life has evolved in such a way that there’s probably not a lot of space to share it with, what is commonly known as, a “special someone”. I don’t feel incomplete, I’m happy with who I am and on the whole people tend to like me, there are those who don’t but mostly it’s a mutual thing so that’s fine.

I’ve had a fair amount relationships, and to be honest more than my share of sexual encounters, so many in fact that I’ve lost count. I’ve been in love a few times. I’ve been both faithful and unfaithful, as have others to me.

I do quite miss intimacy mind you, it wasn’t till very recently after having had some, that I noticed I’d missed anything at all, up until lately I was quite happy watching internet porn accompanied by Madame palm and her five daughters. Though by saying “missing intimacy” I don’t just mean sex, of course sex is a part of that, but the just being with someone, holding them close, feeling them lying next to you, holding hands and feeling their head laying gently on your shoulder. that’s the bit I’ve really missed.

I’m pretty lucky though, some people never find love and companionship. I know this chap, Lets call him the Quark Man for the sake of his anonymity, who hasn’t really had a relationship at all he’s in his forties, and has to date only had the most fleeting of encounters, which it would seem according to the internet is much more common for men in the UK these days than it was in decades gone by, although less so for woman it seems.

something like twenty or thirty percent of people live completely on their own in the UK. and in two thousand and seven, seven point eight million UK singles logged on to find love. and many more people die having been single for there whole lives today that did say twenty or thirty years ago. this is almost certainly a symptom of population growth.

Mind you, not being single is no guarantee that you won’t be lonely, there has been the odd relationship, here and there, in my life, when I’ve probably felt more alone, that I do right now, and that to my mind is worst still than being single.

It’s not all bad though, being alone is quite often very pleasant. There’s a place that is very special to me, in Italy, In the foothills of the alps, it is what can only be described as a place of extreme natural beauty. It’s along the course of a river where natural erosion has formed a large pool, and you can sit in the sun swim and enjoy all the tranquillity nature has to offer, and in this place I have spent, alone, some of the most enjoyable times of my life, and there’s much to be said for meditation and quiet contemplation, which is best achieved on your own.

So to sum up, anyone fancy a shag? you’d be helping me out? No? ok then please return to your soup.

Terry Garoghan sings his own songs, to his own music, with his own guitar. Accompanied by Angie Wilson.

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This is not a love song, I repeat this is NOT a love song. Actually, well, it’s more of a hate song, really…

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He’s a clown who doesn’t leave, what ya gonna do?!

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This song is about the most enduring relationship of my life…

Haikus Number One

Haiku

Can I do this haiku thing?

I guess I could try.

Looks like I’ve done one.


Cat

I live with a cat.

I have called her Izzy.

Do you think she knows her name?


Sex

I like to have sex.

Orgasms are great.

especially with Cathy


Sustenance

We all need to eat.

And though meat is fun

Don’t forget your five a day.


River

River only flowing down.

Journey to the coast.

to become the sea.


I spy

I spy with my little eye.

something over there.

nothing over here.

Meme Tank

An aquarium of ideas:

I like to think I’m a rational man, others may or may not agree, but nevertheless this is how I see me. I haven’t always thought as I do mind you, as a younger man I gave truck to Ideas, that now I see as, although still of interest, ludicrous.

I like books, and I’ve read quite a lot them. Tons of fiction and poetry, as well as a lot of non-fiction including more than a passing interest in science, in school initially, then in books ranging from “A Brief history of Time” and “The Ascent of Man” to name just two. Mostly these days, I keep up with science, by way of a magazine called “New Scientist” which I’m going to consider as much the same as the reading of books as to make no difference, at least as far as the transferral of memes is concerned.

Also, I have though, it’s fair to say, read, and considered, even as reasonable from time to tome, mostly in my past, a lot of the more esoteric types of literature. Covering such topics as, philosophy, religion, and all manner of mysticism, taking in the likes of Alistair Crowley, Sigmund Freud, Wilhelm Reich, Karl Jung, Timothy Leary, Robert Anton Wilson, Aldous Huxley, Hume, Berkley and Descartes, to name just some of the luminaries, to whom I’ve given an interest. As well as reading books, like “The Bible”, “The Koran”, “The Torah” the Tibetan and Egyptian, books of the dead, Homers “Odyssey” and “Iliad” and The Epic of Gilgamesh, in fact all manner of mythologies and legends, I’ve thought about gods and God, and pored over the words of many a great thinker.

The thing you notice, you see, when you look at all this stuff, this grand human endeavour, when you really examine the products of this urge to explain all, this input into ourselves, all this sensory data, “What the fuck is that all about?!” has been the collective cry, that resounds through out history, you inevitably find yourself seeing bits of it, that, look an awful lot like other bits of it. You start to see all the archetypes of explanation, gel together, telling similar if not identical stories.

Take, for example the Egyptian gods, the Jewish patriarchs and Chaldean kings. These three lists of names share striking correlations.

These three lists of people seem to highlight different aspects of humanity, Lets take Enoch, for example, who was seen as a builder, he corresponds with both the Egyptian Hor and the Chaldean Ædorachus, both builders. In fact the builder motif comes up at least once more with the repeat of the seventh Egyptian god Hor, here comparable to Noah and Xisuthrus, both also builders this time of boats, another parallel between the three lists is that they are all, also, presented as lists of seven.

You see these coincidences cropping up all over human history, Ideas that share, if not completely the same themes down to, the beginning middle and end of stories, then elements written on different continents will correspond remarkably with each other. A good example here is the flood Myth.

Analysis, not mine obviously I’ve just read other peoples, of some 600 individual flood traditions, from across the globe, reveals a widespread concurrence on essential points: the prior corruption of mankind, a flood warning unheeded by the masses, a survival vessel, or high mountain where refuge is taken, the preservation of up to eight people with representative animal life, the sending forth of a bird to determine the suitability of re-emerging land, significance in the rainbow, descent from a mountain, and the re-population of the whole earth from a single group of survivors. There are even more specific cases where names are uncannily close. Take the name Noah, itself, which is especially remarkably persistent throughout the world. Particularly so when you consider the ultimate language differences between peoples, and the extreme local distortions which developed in flood legends. Yet the name seems to pop up as the hero in all of them virtually unchanged in such isolated places as Hawaii where he was called Nu-u, in the Sudanese myths we find Nuh, in China Nu-Wah and his family found refuge atop a mountain, the Amazon region has Noa, in Phrygia it’s Noe and among the Hottentots we have Noh and Hiagnoh.

You will often hear people citing Buddhist ideology’s likeness to quantum mechanics. Or how akin the stories of Orsiris and the much later Jesus Christ are, they both conquer a devil heal the sick and, in one coincidental meme, both raise the dead but are these likenesses purely coincidental? Maybe not, perhaps they are simply the same stories gathering embellishment and variance with travel through space and time?

With examination you see how these memes might travel, across oceans and continents, ideas and memes merging or simply consuming each other like badly matched fish in a tank, and this is what my thoughts are and how they are represented in my mind, as a vast glass tank, a meme tank, where I merge the Ideas around imagining them as little families of strangely teated fish, see mother Judaism with her children Christianity and Islam, sucking at her breasts, Christianity herself has a litter of offspring feeding from her many nippled bosoms, Catholicism, Protestantism, Jehovah’s witness’ism, quaker’ism Mormonism, she’s a profligate little meme that Christianity, With a host of little teat attachments gulping them down hungrily and excreting them as subtly different Ideas, new memes born into my tank of meme soup.

I used to think of my Meme Tank as a guard against mistaking the map for the territory, that’s what people do you see, they make these maps of life they use to get around the actual landscape of existence, which is at least, possibly a little understood by us, though it remains largely unknown. This is basically what the maps are for, to fill in the large gaps left by what we don’t know, and often these maps serve us well, so well in fact, that people tend to start to think, often developing this belief over hundreds of years, that the map is actually the territory itself, sometimes these cartographically led travellers will come across, others with different maps. doing something in a way that is different from theirs, and they might say something like.

“Hang on there, lets see your map?”

They might then look at the other map and notice that it is different from the one they have, so they’ll say.

“Hey, your map’s wrong?”

The other map users may in turn say, something along the lines of.

“Really? let’s see yours?”.

And of course they then see where that map is wrong, and will probably retort along the lines.

“Right, I see what’s up here, it’s your map that’s wrong”.

They might stand about awkwardly for a few moments before they, inevitably, fight. Dangerous things maps, look at the wrong one, in the wrong place and you’ll find yourself falling over a cliff, or drowning in quicksand, but use the right map, in the right place, and you’ll find you get most of the things you need, food shelter and all sorts of things will be laid at your feet happily, get it wrong, and they’ll stab you.

Of course, now I realise that my meme tank itself is just a map, a useful tool for navigating life’s highways and byways. It’s a map That represents an approach to life I seldom take seriously any more. These days I think I’m a rationalist, an athiest and a sceptic and if I’ve learnt anything from life, then it’s this;

Taking yourself and your map seriously is a big mistake, leave that to other people, it’s best and most fulfilling to make light of life, by which I don’t mean be uncaring, or taking the pain suffering and misfortune of others without due consideration, we will always need empathy and understanding which is why it’s still ok to take the piss out of people, not to harshly and seldom to their face mind you.

Just remember that you are standing on a giant ball of rock, that has been here for billions of years and will be here for billions more, you and I and our silly little maps will be here for merely a fraction of that, so whatever else you find yourself having to do, try and have a little laugh now and again.

Please return to your soup..

Sydney. (For a life that wasn’t)

Just some words to let you know;

The love around you only grows,

An open heart can only feel,

This grief and loss, by time will heal.


This tragedy has made us feel;

A closer bond I know is real,

For Mothers love you will retain,

With sympathy I feel your pain.


So sadly for a life so short;

For sorrow where true joy was sort,

Holly, you can lean on me,

A friend to you I’ll always be.


(Written to help Nadine express her feelings to her friend Holly at the loss of Baby Sydney)

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